LOOOONG work day tomorrow.. 8 whole hours on my feet.. i hate walgreens for a reason. which is exactly why i should be asleep right now..ive got a total of 6 hrs to sleep, that is, if i went to bed now, which is clearly what im not gonna be doing. thing is, im a huge "friends" freak.. & theres an episode on at 12:30.. oh yes, i am just that big of a loser.
well, the real reason why i decided to not sleep right now is because i was up doing a little bit of research on this recent gym shooting in pennsylvania. thats what happens when im home on a friday night..& bored..& trying to keep from going to sleep, like i should be. but anyways. is it strange that i actually feel bad for the shooter, george sodini? he was 48 years old..& according to his blog, he hadn't had a girlfriend since 1984 & hadn't had sex since 1990, when he was 29. in fact, his main reason for being so hateful of women is that he simply couldnt get one. i just dont understand. he was an attractive guy, especially for his age, he worked out, it seemed like he had his life in order..so what exactly set him off? he clearly bashed his mother, calling her "The Boss", and actually asking why people are so vicious to the people closest to them.. so typical psychological case, male angry at his mother, so he tranfers it to all women.. right? but he actually wanted to be with someone, he was just lonely.. i dont know, i just feel bad for him. it mustve been so hard to be alone for 20ish years.. i am NOT, by ANY means, condoning his actions. DO NOT get the wrong idea. i just think that perhaps there is something a little lonely about his existence..i just wonder, in all his 48 years, was he ever truly happy? did he ever feel truly loved? hmm..just something to think about..
on another note, the "friends" episode tonight is about how monica is dating a great guy, rich, attractive, great personality, and yet, she simply isnt attracted to him. which is another great question ive pondered ever since i knew what liking someone was.. but its getting late, i wanna finish watching this episode, and i have to get up at 6:30 tomorrow morning!..its already almost 1am. dangit. another exhausting 8hrs of standing & falling asleep at walgreens awaits me tomorrow. wonderful.